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[ale_90]

Dear Master Ksenia, Mentors and Colleagues, I have a question.
 
I have a relative who is an energy vampire and (strongly under the influence of the christian egregore as well). After reading on the forum ( the russian one) and learning about Hel's seal and that it could be used on such relatives, I tried to use it to break my connection with him. We are not that close and cutting off contact completely would not bother me.
 
The only problem is, now he seems to want more contact, he has reached out to me to meet up. Did I do it incorrectly, did it somehow backfire? Or is this a provocation? Or does the seal simply break our connection so that he can no longer feed on my energy even though we would meet?

The last experience I had with him was terrible, it took me 2-3 days to restore my energy  and I have a feeling the christian egregore is somehow connected, because he kept talking on and on about Jesus and God ( in the specific christian way) and how we must all find that ( "just surrender to love and light"). In general I am not so sensitive to such topics and people rarely manage to suck the energy out of me like this, so I am not sure what happened this time. I put protection up as we were conversing, but granted, I did not prepare beforehand, since I wasn't expecting such an interaction.

[Xeniache]

The only problem is, now he seems to want more contact, he has reached out to me to meet up. Did I do it incorrectly, did it somehow backfire? Or is this a provocation? Or does the seal simply break our connection so that he can no longer feed on my energy even though we would meet?

Hello ale_90! I would say that by using Hel's seal between your relative and yourself you altered the usual flow of energy and his alert system went off. Afterall, vampire needs his food )) He has lost his regular "energy meal", and now feels hungry and goes on a hunt. By contacting or meeting you, he most probably subconsciously thinks that the"food tunnel" will be restored. So, you'd probably stay away from him for a little while. In my experience, Hel's seal is not necessarily about "cutting off" the connections, but mostly about not allowing any modifications to be made in your life. It freezes any possible effects that can somehow harm you or change course of your life. Like in your situation, you froze the channel between you two, you did not make this person disappear from your life. He sensed it. And now it's only up to you how to deal with it: open new "gates" for him or to break contact with him and focus on yourself and your reactions to his vampire trick. Your energy is your energy, and you can decide whom to give it and whom not.

[solmetts]

Hello! I have been struggling with my finances and being recognized for my artistic abilities despite this having been a core part of my path my entire life.

Professional recognition has been fleeting (though I sense it is now just on the horizon).

I feel that I have to overcome some personal challenges as tests, and have since finally passed. ie the ability to take my work seriously as a professional and to work despite it being -work-, finishing my work to the best of my ability despite it not being perfect, and letting go of my ego around being a "good artist".

There are a couple of things I would like to bring up:

First is that cyclically I have been in a state of poverty, that is on the level of laborers, and that I have been continuously relegated to service-oriented positions that have been predominantely PHYSICAL despite being a very mental kind of being.
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I'm trying to wrap my head around this phenomenon -- of constant poverty -- of being relegated to a path that has been so unlike my sensibilities even. 2.1-2.3 is about striving, which I definitely resonate with. Despite being in such a state I have poured countless time and energy into my craft and my education.

What could be some reasons that this is happening? And how can I start remedying it, so that I am acknowledged professionally, or at least that my jobs be more in alignment with a demonstration of the skills that I have that can be of value to others?

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I do note that there are internal states inside me that are clashing too, which may be important.

Not genuinely seeing life from the perspective of professionalism or "selling" my craft. I can imitate professionalism, but my true perspective is that of "influencing" the world "influencing narrative", and that is where my true desires lie, as an artist who can inspire and motivate.

Secondly, my spiritual pursuits have wholly consumed me (though I have found much balance in the past 6 years), so in the back of my mind, everything I create is secondary and must be to pay for more knowledge or strength and balance in regards to my spiritual development.

I also notice inside a HUGE resistance to giving my time to anyone or anything, and am trying to remedy that. I don't like giving my time to labor that results for paying for my time with my physical time with dollars. I try to think of sharing value instead.

I have sinced started this magical path, and am working with harmonization and chakral breathing which is already helping me in my day-to-day work.

How may we remedy our caste problems if this may also be the case?

[Petr Aberg]

What could be some reasons that this is happening? And how can I start remedying it, so that I am acknowledged professionally, or at least that my jobs be more in alignment with a demonstration of the skills that I have that can be of value to others?

Artists need to be able to disidentify themselves and their work in order to realize their creativity. Because as long as there is a connection in your mind between your work and the expectation of being properly evaluated or recognized by the processional community - then you will be trampled on. Try to answer yourself honestly: what are you really afraid of? Write down all these fears. Which ones are irrational? Where did they come from in your head? What egregore is the source of these fears?
Come back to the class Money-1 if you need.

Don't devalue the progress you've made. In all this time you have already built up certain algorithms.  You've found them out the hard way. And so they have become your property. Your actual achieved results. Yours by right.

Not genuinely seeing life from the perspective of professionalism or "selling" my craft. I can imitate professionalism, but my true perspective is that of "influencing" the world "influencing narrative", and that is where my true desires lie, as an artist who can inspire and motivate.

Try to look at money not as an goal in itself, but as a tool to achieve your true desires. Money, for example, can allow you to improve your skills and explore new ways of applying your creativity to reality. 

And of course we should not forget that we cannot ignore the needs of this world. We learn about ourselves and the world around us. Because without taking into account the rules of the external environment it is difficult and unproductive to manifest ourselves. Because the consciousness will spend colossal amounts of energy to prove its own rightness.

How may we remedy our caste problems if this may also be the case?

It is exactly the case. I really hope that by the end of your 1st Course, you realize that people are not equal. Every time  we think why some people get everything and I get nothing, you're lowering yourself to the level of the laborers caste.

If I don't know how to do something then I'll go learn  how to achieve it. No matter how hard will it be.Because I have a goal and a task that leads me through a storm of provocations and an ocean of injustice, meanness and lies. Opinions about oneself do not matter. As much as opinions about others do not matter either. Opinions of others about me also do not matter There's only me. I AM as I AM.

[solmetts]

Artists need to be able to disidentify themselves and their work in order to realize their creativity. Because as long as there is a connection in your mind between your work and the expectation of being properly evaluated or recognized by the processional community - then you will be trampled on. Try to answer yourself honestly: what are you really afraid of? Write down all these fears. Which ones are irrational? Where did they come from in your head? What egregore is the source of these fears?
Come back to the class Money-1 if you need.

Journaled about this and will continue to do so, but a lot of my fears are around feeling worthless and that the naysayers are correct. A huge amount of energy is going toward social egregores and my family egregore, as in fighting back negative voices. Some of the other ways this affects me is taking out my joy in the creative process, so that I'm mostly making decisions that are better for commercial gain (getting money) than learning, which slows down my progress.

This also causes me to get to have a lot of my self-worth wrapped up in "making it" and adds to the frustration surrounding the current results.

I have also noticed that my mind spends a lot of time trying to avoid feeling bad about the state of my work and my self-concept around it.

Don't devalue the progress you've made. In all this time you have already built up certain algorithms.  You've found them out the hard way. And so they have become your property. Your actual achieved results. Yours by right.

Yes, thank you for the reminder.
 

It is exactly the case. I really hope that by the end of your 1st Course, you realize that people are not equal. Every time  we think why some people get everything and I get nothing, you're lowering yourself to the level of the laborers caste.

If I don't know how to do something then I'll go learn  how to achieve it. No matter how hard will it be.Because I have a goal and a task that leads me through a storm of provocations and an ocean of injustice, meanness and lies. Opinions about oneself do not matter. As much as opinions about others do not matter either. Opinions of others about me also do not matter There's only me. I AM as I AM.

This is again, true, and I will be contemplating this a lot more as I move forward.

Thank you for your advice and suggestions, Petr.